Now, once again, about the Pod. Most likely you had already picked up on the fact that the Pod really got to me – stressed me out – even though I knew in my tiny brain that it was just an inanimate object with no hidden agenda for making my life miserable. Even though I knew I should be grateful for how God was providing for our needs rather than be concerned about the temporary disorganization around me. I showed you pictures of the mess in our backyard, the Pod and the boxes, right? Well, the Pod is gone with all the rest of the clutter that was in the pictures, and NOW I’m content and happier. Add J.L.’s valiant efforts and untiring work to that, and the formerly chaotic yard has been transformed into a thing of beauty. A place for everything and everything in its place…almost. So, if you heard something that sounded vaguely like the Hallelujah Chorus wafting in the summer air during the last 10 days or so, know for sure that it was coming from West Davis Street in Burlington.
However, to be honest, it was not my original intention that I gain this contentment after the Pod was gone. It had been my hope and prayer to learn contentment before the Pod left, in the MIDST of the stress and uncertainty. You know, I had hoped to become St. Paulette and proclaim very proudly (probably in the wrong sense of the word) that I too had learned “to be content in every situation”. Then I would be the shining example of how to get through pressures like these, not just somehow, but triumphantly. But, alas, that’s not how it turned out. Oh, no.
What to do, what to do? Well, one thing I’ve been doing is thinking and praying and rejoicing for the verses this morning (Psalm 103:13-14), comforting me that the Lord remembers that I am dust….and loves me anyway! That’s a big relief for me in times of failure, or, at best, missteps. I’m so grateful that the Lord is, once again, patient with me. I can’t imagine a Love deep enough to put up with so many disappointing performances from a creature that professes to love and serve Him. Yet, His longsuffering heart of love is always there, over and over again. I guess that’s why amazing remains such an awesome companion word for grace.
I am sure that the Lord has another tailor-made situation for me so that I can practice my dependency on Him again. But, next time, I want to get through it with humility and peace, without the moodiness and quick temper, speaking politely and encouragingly to J.L. and others. I would appreciate it if you would pray for me. It’s both embarrassing and humbling to have to keep repeating these lessons. Humbling? Well now, there you have it, another reason for a God-ordained Pod in my life – after all, God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble. (James 4:6b)
With love from a work still in process,
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.” 1 Corinthians 4:7
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